I am a list maker. I love having all of my "things to do" written down where I can see them. I especially need lists when I am overwhelmed or really tired. Sometimes, though, the length of the list becomes even more paralyzing. Today, I had a whole new experience with crossing things off my list.
Last week, I sat down and wrote down all the things I needed to get done. The list was long, but not overwhelming. I immediately set out to cross off each item.
1. Call BCBS check about Malaria pills - CHECK - but have to call back on Monday to see if it went through. (I hate when crossing something off your list makes you add something else!!)
2. Call State Farm to cancel Allie's car insurance - CHECK
3. Finish knitting socks - CHECK
4. Start a new pair of socks - CHECK
5. Finish Mother/Daughter scrapbook - CHECK
6. Buy Steripen
Suddenly today as I was crossing off the scrapbook, it dawned on me that the faster I checked things off this list, the sooner Allie was leaving. I felt sucker punched. Now, I know that if I don't check things off the list, she is still leaving...but the realization of her impending departure just knocked me out once more.
Readers, I guess if you don't want to hear about empty nest, sadness, etc. you might want to check back in a couple of months. I am sure by then the joy of doing what I want to do when I want to do it will have taken over...till then...I am in my bed...